And you're not alone?
That is, what if you can't ground your suffering in the obviously banal and superficial happiness of all those other people out there. What if they're really just trying to exist, to find out what makes them work, thrive, etc., and are not intensely unidirectional, or intentional.
To wit, what if they are honestly trying and you (me, by reference), are really making excuses not to try, because, in large part, it is much easier not to try and fail than to make an effort and realize that you/me are not that wonderful, or that intensely suffering, even, or that especially anything, but that, even a hundred years ago, and especially now, there are many more talented people out there, smarter and faster and more creative and willing to experiment and get up after being knocked down?
What if all those fancy schemes and shows and tells just come down to one thing:
What if nothing you've ever done is justified by anything other than your own narrow vanity?
I'd say that's not so surprising. Unfortunately.
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